112014593764256609 Thursday, Jun 30 2005 

speaking of a series of unfortunate events. yesterday’s night trapping was the most boring session ever, yet. with only twenty or so mosquitoes caught, you can imagine what else can we do for the rest of the period (from 6 pm to 12 midnight.) it wasn’t only us, the other pairs also didn’t have much luck with mosquitoes. weird.. maybe all migrated liao. luckily at around eleven, a durian picker chanced on our catching area and offered us a few tasty D24-quality durians, before continuing to pick more for his own.

the point is, reached home at around 1 or so. supposed to have a full day off today but because my upper study is not around as well, and my boss is on reservice (this is when i start to miss him), i have to play one man show and turn up in the morning, because our branch simply cannot close shop for the day. was rather freaking tired already, but couldn’t rest because i exchanged cos duty with someone at the last notice (this morning actually). and had to finish up my officer’s work, trying to understand the formulaic jargon of microsoft excel. frustrating experience. not to mention the equally irritating ad hoc complaints.. no offence to the complainant but under such circumstances i’d wish i receive no calls, or just some simple pest complaints without the complainant adding to my workload by constantly urging me to solve the matter immediately.

the frustration doesn’t end here. upon reaching home to enjoy my half day off, i got a call from my camp telling me that i took home the office keys. had to go all the way back to camp.. :( to return the keys. after that supposed to watch Initial D with James (my camp mate) at jurong point. intended to take mrt but decided to hitch a ride from another campmate. because neither of us have travelled to jurong east mrt before, we kinda got lost pretty bad, and when there wasn’t much time i dropped off at the bus station hoping to catch the bus to jurong point which was at boon lay actually. then realised, upon boarding the bus, i was travelling in the wrong direction. got down, took awhile before flagging a cab that solved my travelling woes at a hefty price of five bucks. dammit.. was hoping i could save some costs by using my Movie Money, since the movie should then cost only $5.50 for me.

thank goodness the bad stuff ends after that, haha.

initial d was not too bad. except jay chou can’t cry for nuts. havent been watching any movie since star wars episode III, so it’s a good start to end the movie-famine era i’ve been experiencing. after that, went for dinner with yulinda and the rest of 3J, at pizza hut. had quite a good time, but was also quite tired. a number of us, 5 actually, took 156 home together. it was a wonderful trip, haha.

tmr is saf day, dedication parade. will attend it, after that, claim yet another half day off. this time, i’ll make sure i enjoy my off to the fullest. (probably sleep through it all!)

111953401925617573 Thursday, Jun 23 2005 

is there a chance in hell or heaven that there’s still something here to build on? or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall?

heh, with the absence of my direct boss who is away for in camp training / reservice for the whole of june and the first week of july, life in camp is pretty much very very stress free. haven’t been going out of camp for any inspections though, so i guess there’s a little minus as well. anyway, in response to the latest class blog entry to date, i can only say i’m confused as to whether it’s written in an envious tone… or a condescending one. it sounds very much like the latter but i can’t be too sure… but i still feel the need to defend myself. it was 1315 when you came and look for me, which was between my lunch time of 1230 and 1330. i purposely skipped lunch so i could take a much needed nap since i havent been sleeping much the past few days. usually i’ll just let the matter rest but it seems like everytime you come and talk to me about army life you have the very very strong impression that i am totally slacking my life away… and want to prove that everyone else is in a harder time than me. all these, without even knowing what the hell my job scope is. as for the slacking part… hmm.. ok it may be partially true, but nonetheless i think there is no need to announce to everyone how i have been faring in my life these days.. you know?

anyway, indeed.. slacking has become a favourite pastime of mine. after i got my pass status for basic theory my desire to obtain a driving license has waned to just a tiny bit. which isn’t a good thing actually, because knowing myself, i may take a few more tries before i actually pass my test haha… so i really really have to start early. and my fellow schoolmate and now campmate, vincent, has been urging me to sign up at ssdc. and stop wasting my afteroffice hours away! sigh… maybe .. next week? bleah lol.

currently psyching up for my upcoming perth trip! will be going with 4 other guys, yauhong and 3 from my camp. with dive sites and beautiful scenery, and a bustling nightlife (ok, that isn’t true.. except for maybe the clubs at james street which we will definitely be going) this will be quite an experience… after the hong kong one. still haven’t gotten over my holiday addiction haha..

an update on the big events in june, which saw the marriages of mr chan (my jc2 form teacher) and miss lee (dxo in my camp) and the birthday of my cousin esther. what a happy month!

111789992165479685 Saturday, Jun 4 2005 

to say i’m fatigued is an understatement. had to wake up at 0540 for the hqmc run event at fort canning. and friday was supposed to be my recharge day!! (definition = sleep and wake whenever i want.) but luckily today reached home early.. so i’ll recharge today instead.

in the afternoon, killed time togayther with ping khuan who decided to come my house for no reason, even after i insisted that there’s nothing to do in my house. demonstrated how i fed my frogs, showed him a few funny clips here and there, challenged him to marvel vs capcom (we were both equally cannot make it) and showed off my prowess in creating “almost similar to the original piece, only inferior to a significant extent” midis.

then, rushed off to my grandmothers house in the evening, played a few rounds of mahjong with cousin’s friends. (thank god a number of them also don’t know how to play “pai”, so i wasn’t that embarrassed) before rushing off again, to meet lik man for a drink.

that trip to city hall cost me $10 when i could have easily spent only $2 if i had chosen to take MRT instead of cab… and reach the place at around the same time. -_- but lik man gracefully offered to qia me drink. throughout the night he tried to make me feel less depressed… and amazingly it works! :) to some extent, at least. only i felt a little guilty because what was supposed to be a mutual talking cock session became a one-sided self-despair-saturated whining affair to a good listener. yea, it’s hard to find a good listener, although there are a few whom i know, thank god!

and then, on the way back home kept dozing off in the bus. not sure if it’s the effects of the kilkenny. even when i see my stop right in front of me, only about 100 m away, i still stubbornly closed my eyes to ‘rest’… and very almost overshort the stop. luckily there was someone else who was also getting down and pressed the doorbell for me.

nope, not time to rest yet. got things to do…. -_-

111772542220202327 Thursday, Jun 2 2005 

it’s a real pity that everytime i get a few hours off from work i waste them by sleeping, playing useless games or chatting aimlessly. met up with zhongyang and yauhong in the evening, for a dinner cum talk cock session, and then played an hour or so of pool with yauhong. is it my imagination or are my pool skills finally improving to a level that people will want to play with me? :) bleah, probably just my imagination, but it was still very fun though.

heh, really amazing, managed to go out with zy and yh for the second time this week! (first was last weekend.) for the past few months or so i have been the one initiating and being very very unsuccessful, as they were all pretty busy with their work and stuff. but yea this will probably be the last time though since zy is going europe and yh is learning divemaster in malaysia very soon. from what i hear, college hols are really fun, with all that mountain climbing, backpacking, trekking, group holidays, diving, snowboarding, cave rafting, jet skiing, skydiving etc. seems that everyone in uni is doing at least a quarter of the above mentioned. wow. do people really have the time (and money) to do all these stuff? if that is really the case, then i seriously look forward to uni life.

111770141443466822 Thursday, Jun 2 2005 

Your Birthdate: May 7
Born on the 7th day of month gives you a tendency to be something of a perfectionist and makes you more individualistic in many ways.
Your mind is good at deep mental analysis and complicated reasoning.
You are very psychic and sensitive, and you should usually follow your hunches.

You may not take orders too well, so you may want to work alone or in a situation where you can be the boss.
This birthday gives a tendency to be somewhat self-centered and a little stubborn.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

This is so… disturbingly accurate!

anyway, with all the big big events over (not counting this sat’s life), can look forward to a much less stressful environment. direct boss in reservice for one month, so obviously less arrows around. and the new SO is really nice and approachable.. at least for now. maybe i will have more energy to do those plans on my current “things to do” list, most notably final theory and learning how to snowboard!

111764157932472088 Wednesday, Jun 1 2005 

hmm, this post may be a little overdue, but nonetheless… My heart goes out to you and your sister. don’t know you at all, but whatever the case, you guys truly truly don’t deserve it. i know you are in a better place now that justice has been served. thanks to your blog!

God… I am truly a fucker, whining about all my little problems just a short while back. obviously i didn’t know that there are people like you. who are contented with just about the tiniest thing that can ever happen.

rest in peace, dude. it’s a heaven out there.

111763126474660842 Wednesday, Jun 1 2005 

Looks like i really have to give up hope from this moment on. it sucks that you still cling on to the possibility, albeit minute, all these while, even though there are so many hints that you won’t make it being thrown at you straight in the face. you know the outcome, but you still feel super depressed when it’s finally officially released. why???

the past month hasn’t been kind. it was kinda frustrating, what with the heavy involvements in the military medicine conference and the upcoming life programs, the xxxx in-flight noise testing… but i still haven’t earned anyone’s confidence in my working ability, not even my upper study, despite me giving my best. it’s depressing. (almost) suffering from burnout. am so stressed out. and nothing reassuring has happened so far. my fucking modem or router etc is still giving me tons of problems; 6 out of my 7 fishes died. 4 in a matter of 4 days… and i have no idea why. and then come the two letters…

i feel like i’m getting numerous votes of no confidence in everything. and i’m not supposed to be feeling so isolated since i’m interacting with crowds everyday. something’s wrong..?