Holiday! Friday, Apr 27 2007 

The exam ended on an extremely bad note. CN1111 paper .. the first question was a killer! 30 marks … gone down the drain just like that.

I don’t want to think about it too much.

Anyway, I’m left with Critical Thinking module on May 2, which doesn’t require studying. Which means.. EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER BABY! time to cheer and play… until .. 26th may.

Not that i’m overly excited about it. I downloaded castlevania – harmony of dissonance. by the time i defeated the Giant Bat (the very first boss fight) i became incredibly bored and switched it off. maybe will continue tomorrow.. depends on my mood. but ya also gotta catch up with all the movies i’ve wanted to watch. only watched a miserable 2 movies this year so far. next stop.. hills have eyes 2 and little miss sunshine! and of course spiderman 3!!

oh yea today also marks my 1st year anniversary into the full-time civilian club (a.k.a ORD)! nothing much to celebrate about though. just an intriguing observation i made.

Thou shalt not lie!! Tuesday, Apr 24 2007 

This is what our biochem lecturer told us:

“Haworth projection of sugars noneed to care about it too much.”

“Citric Acid cycle is not as important… as glycolysis. I hope you get the message.”

“Beta-Oxidation is more important… the other parts of lipid metabolism not that important.”

In the end….

Beta-oxidation didn’t come out.

Glycolysis didn’t come out.

Haworth projection came out as an open-ended question.

I regretted giving him a B+ for the survey… when I dont even know if I can get a B+ for this module myself. ARGH.

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oh well, maybe i deserved it, if judged by my attitude in the exams.

just yesterday during the organic chem exam, i conveniently brought in only a pen. and the exam was about retrosynthesis – something which required lots and lots of planning – needless to say, lots and lots of corrections to go with it. without any correction fluid, i could only make do with cancellations and arrows all over the place.

hence, on every page there was at least one statement that went something like “P.T.O. answer continued at bottom of next page. after answer to qn 2″ or “i redrew this on the last page of the booklet. sorry.”

so today, being the careful person i am, i remembered to bring a liquid paper along, to help correct any mistakes i would make – which did prove handy actually. but just before i entered the hall.. i realised that the exam had an MCQ section which required a pencil to shade on the answer sheet.

6 pens , 1 calculator and a liquid paper in hand obviously isn’t enough!

asked everyone around me… all only got 1 pencil. asked the person behind my desk “hey do you have any extra pencil?” and she replied “i only got one la! why you everytime ask me the same question?” then i remembered the past CA i also forgot to bring pencil. -_-

very fortunately the examiner had an extra pencil. but that was not the only thing i needed. when i looked at the structured questions part, realised there was a question which i would be required to draw a graph.

no eraser. so i tried to draw as neat as possible.. but the pencil was so lousy it got blunt very quickly, and my “single” graph was split into three different lines. i tried to thicken the broken lines part to join them together.. because i had no eraser.

then no ruler also. so i used my matric card to draw the axis. again… jagged axis… sigh. i hope neatness isn’t a criteria for grading!

only when i went back to the mcq section.. and shaded the very first question wrong.. i had no choice and decided to ask the examiner for an eraser.. and after which i corrected the “thick lines” on my graph as well. yea, why didn’t i ask for it earlier huh!

lol. i hope i do well for this exam.. i mean i truly know most of the stuff tested.. just that i was very untidy only, and made a lot of stupid mistakes… but no regrets since i think i tried my best this time.

1 down (and down) Saturday, Apr 21 2007 

Maths finals are over and I minus at least 18.5 marks. Haiz…. Can only blame myself for doing all the long unnecessary workings and wasted so much of my time. When I finally discovered how to do a certain question, I couldn’t finish it. And that’s one down. Next stop is chemistry on monday.

On the bright side… NO MORE MATHS MODULES IN MY WHOLE LIFE (if i don’t get F for this one which i’m pretty sure i won’t LOL) NO MORE VECTOR CALCULUS NO MORE TRANSFORMATION MATRICES NO MORE DIFFERENTIAL EQUATIONS NO MORE LAPLACE TRANSFORMS!!!!!!!!!

NO MORE!!!!

Save Internet Radio, Save the World Wednesday, Apr 18 2007 

lol ok sorry for the cheesy title. LOL!

anyway this is something i’ve been following rather closely, and for those who don’t know (which probably means almost all singaporeans, i think), the US copyright royalties board issued a revamped royalties payment plan for all internet radio servers, which is outrageously high. needless to say all internet radio servers cried foul and appealed for a reconsideration of such a decision.

just yesterday, internet radio was dealt by yet another blow when the CRB denied a rehearing from the broadcasters, claiming that there being no evidence to warrant such a hassle. this spurred most broadcasters to gather round and start an intense “save net radio” movement.

actually such a movement was already in place since 2nd march, when the draconian rates were passed, but with negligible impact on the ruling at all. firstly, the petitions were disorganized, with signatures ranging from repeat posters to spammers. secondly, everyone was still banking on the fact that the state congress could help them appeal, but it’s quite obvious they weren’t gonna do anything about it.

what is interesting now is that this current movement is now dominated by big giant corporations, like yahoo music, aol radio, accuradio. independent broadcasters and music hobbyists from live365 are nowhere to be seen. not that this is a bad thing, because firstly they have money to lobby and fight (for at least a good year or two), and big names usually pack a bigger punch as well.

the first thing they’re going to do is to organise direct talks with soundexchange – the evil culprit behind the decision. i am actually quite afraid that this will really spell the end of live365, unknown radio amongst the rest.

the problem although big names like yahoo music is also protesting against the drastic royalty hike, these corporations are essentially streaming internet radio for profit.

on the other hand, live365 broadcasters pay to broadcast, without earning anything. no kidding, they are really doing this because of their passion. there are no advertisements whatsoever. this allows them to stream any form of niche music because they do not expect to clock enough listeners to pay for them in the first place.

it’s likely that any direct talks of this nature will ultimately result in a win-win business deal on both sides. but live365 will not stand to gain from this.

in the worst-possible scenario, live365 will be reduced to 10 or so stations (from the current 10000), and accuradio and radio aol will have genres catering only to the mainstream. already i see this happening, when i listened to the so-called Indie channel on Accuradio and heard Hinder’s Lips of an Angel.

if that is going to be the case, then what is the difference between Internet radio and terrestrial radio?

as of now, i listen to Warrior Radio (a mixture of adrenaline-filled songs, taken from MGS ost, LOTR amongst others), Gamers Nostalgia, Medieval RPG Music, all available on live365. radio stations operating for profit will never have such wonderful stations because the number of listeners is simply too low. to be fair, radio aol does offer a final fantasy channel, but that’s about it. if a business deal is reached, there will still be genres like 60s, 70s, alternative, dance, but more niche areas like 20s big band, 50s rockabilly, and truly independent artists (NOT hinder or radiohead or panic! at the disco) will become extinct.

in the meantime, all the internet radio corporations are abuzz online with various suggestions on what to do if all else fails. some ideas that came up include setting up offshore servers (which would exempt them from royalties, apparently), playing only independent musicians who are not under any label, and even going underground. there are also overseas-based legal sites which allow streaming for free ike mercora. and fortunately, all these are actually viable options.

i hope everything turns out well in the end. long live internet radio.

meanwhile……..

riaa has so far overlooked the recent advent of numerous “legal” music sites on the net, like imeem, which pose an even greater threat to their livelihood. after the issue of internet radio has settled, these sites will be their next target. hard to blame as well since there has really been a rapid drop in physical record sales these days compared to the past.

if one chooses to be optimistic, hopefully an equilibrium will be reached where consumers can listen to music online for free and much of the revenues of music industry come from companies behind such business-run “music portals”. but these will take a hell lot of analysis and studies, and may probably take several years to take effect, or may never even happen. for all it’s worth, i’m not a business student and this is just a personal conjecture.

anyway, here’s an update on what i’ve been up to apart from following the events of internet radio and the truly unfortunate shooting. i spend the rest of my time mostly studying, or trying to study. but i know myself – i am going to do below expectations for my exams this sem.

oh yea, went to mushroom pot yesterday. the food is not bad, just a little expensive.

Nothing justifies killing Wednesday, Apr 18 2007 

not even when you wre raped and sodomised by your parents when young, not even when you are alienated by the society in some ways and feel isolated and lonely throughout, not even when you are depressed and no one can understand the sad ness you are feeling, not even when you think you are a tortured soul unable to face the world, even if you feel a gazillion injustices are being done to you, SO WHAT?!?!

i do’nt know man, but i am just not able to sympathize with someone like him, even if he is possibly abused, sexually abused etc. whatever, what he has just done is simply unforgiveable and vile. while the school could have been more observant to prevent anything like this from happening, (and definitely SHOULD have better sense to inform the whole community immediately when the first killings happened), i am super pissed off with him – and that is an understatement. from what i have read, he hasn’t been helping himself and his attitude towards everything has been shit.

i just can’t see how being a troubled soul justifies killing. i even suspect he thought that himself being troubled was a reasonable excuse to bring so many people down with him. people everywhere say his past behaviours were his ways to “cry for help”. i don’t know, but i can’t bring myself to be sympathetic to that level. maybe for an 8 year old child that is still acceptable, but definitely not for a college senior. he is smart enough to do more than merely write plays of disturbing nature and submitting to teachers.

note that i’m not belittling the terrible stuff that probably has happened to him in the past (and i probably will never be able to understand how he feels even half completely).

but himself, most likely (but not verified, just what i think) being consumed with the self-pitying society-hating mindset that oh, it’s the bloody society, it’s everyone, its’ the debauchery and the charlatans, that made me who i am. no one can understand my pain. life isn’t fair…. that freaking pissed me off. this may sound sweeping and immature on my part, but i have to say this… who the fuck said life is fair in the first place?

so while the debate on whether firearm possession should be banned continues, let’s hope that the much more pressing issue of helping troubled people be resolved soon. schools (teachers and students alike) can be more proactive in helping those who are mentally troubled. if people like him refuse to seek help – for whatever shit reasons which i personally will probably not accept – the least we can do is to take the initiative to help him. ( argh. i can’t even make myself type “care for him” instead of “help him” although that is what i really mean – not help him by locking him up in an asylum) but even if the minority of us (like me) can’t bring ourselves to like him, it’s for the sake of the people around him, that we’re all obliged to help. ARGH.

The Fat Green Tube has Coronary Blockage. Monday, Apr 16 2007 

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This is the typical connection speed of a Starhub Express user. On Sunday nights the speed is even slower.

Starhub Express is touted to have speeds “up to” 6000 kbps… and I guess Starhub isn’t lying when they advertise that… in Singapore servers it is just around there.

But the speed response to overseas servers are really disgusting. Speeds to UK servers are not even 56k!!! Oh and this is the average value I got – one particular test taken 1 minute ago yielded a 20 kbps result.

In the US it’s a tad better… but definitely not good enough. Of course the Starhub customer service personnel will be told to say that some overseas servers are not reliable (meaning it’s not their fault). Well, another test from another source did have a different result.

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But it’s still not good enough….

I mean, if they claim the speed to be up to 6000 kbps, I think to have 10% of that bandwidth for overseas servers is a reasonable expectation right?! 600 kbps can achieve a hell lot of stuff lor!

Maybe it is true that it is hard to rectify the problem if it concerns overseas servers, I don’t believe the other side (i.e. Starhub) can do absolutely nothing about it.
And that aside, the minimum Starhub can do to appease its subscribers is to at least acknowledge the bloody problem and state that they will work on it or something.. instead of totally pushing the blame to overseas servers which can be damn annoying (if you search HWZ forums you’ll see how many people are dissatisfied already.)

The worst thing to do is to deny everything, even though we all know that the evening periods are when dota players and porn surfers become the most active. Someone even posted on the forum that Starhub personnel claimed the bandwidth is not shared amongst neighbouring households; the truth of which cannot be verified. But if that is really true, then it has to be the most blatant lie they can come up with. That is in the same league as their previous denials of bandwidth throttling.

UPDATE. the speed to US servers has now officially crawled to below 56 kbps. WELL DONE STARHUB.

You Know You Need a Break From Homework When… Monday, Apr 16 2007 

1) You think that 10 cm = 1 m.

2) You think that 1 cm = 100 mm.

3)  You think that 1 hr = 60 x 60 x 60 seconds.

4)  You think thak that y(x)=0 means x=0.

5) You make the mistake 0.5(x+2) = 0.5x + 2 three times in a row.

6) You perform “number evolution” three times in a single problem:

1 lbf = 32.174 lbm ft / s^-2

………. 1 lbf = 3.2174 lbm ft/s^-2

…….. 1 lbf = 3.2175 lbm ft/s^-2

……. 1 lbm = 3.2175 lbf ft/s^2

6) You think that 1 + 1 = 0.

Should I, like, just switch to school? Sunday, Apr 15 2007 

So far my driving progress has been annoyingly slow, and until today, I have always blamed myself for being a slow learner.

Now, I conclude that my instructor is partially to blame. His teachings are average at best, his instructions vague at times, but I don’t mind all these. What makes me go (-_-”) is his attitude. Twice, he scheduled another student and i both on the same timeslot and once i was asked to go home. One reason why I postponed my first attempt was because he forgot my exam date and didn’t organise any circuit for me. Even as of now, I have only seen the circuit twice.

But the most annoying thing is he isn’t proactive enough to organize a suitable lesson timing for me. For example, after CNY, because the week after that I had mid-terms, I requested for one week break. Subsequently, everytime I called him up he’ll reply “i’m driving now.. i call you this weekend”, or “i’m driving now.. i call you tonight” but he would never call. When I called him back again, he’ll reply “i’ll call you tomorrow” and again he wouldn’t call. And the same cycle repeated a good five or six times as far as I remembered. All these dragging resulted in over a month of hiatus for me.

And just today, he performed his “forgetful stunt” on me again. &)*(%$#%*()#$&%

After service, I rushed to have a quick lunch and was supposed to meet him at 1300 at the usual place. He was nowhere in sight. I walked to our second meeting place, thinking maybe I got the meeting place wrong, and no he wasn’t there. So I walked back, and I saw an empty Lancer car, with an “L” plate parked by the side of the road. I figured it was my instructor’s car even though I couldn’t remember the licence plate. (I only know he drives a lancer.. okok i’m just as forgetful as him) Happy that he was finally here and was probably in the washroom I just stood by the side of his car waiting for him to appear.

Then the embarrassing thing happened. Turns out that it wasn’t his car. I only found out when the actual instructor and his student walked towards my direction, stared at me funnily; instinctively i shifted aside and they opened the car doors, entered, and drove away.

Fed up, I called my instructor and he exclaimed that he had forgotten we had lessons today.

GG NO RE.

My exam is on the 3rd May, next week I gotta prepare for my finals and with that I only have , what, 5 free days to learn driving? And with his busy schedule at most I can only have 2 more lessons before my exam.

LIKE THAT SURE FAIL ONE LA!

Really, if switching to public isn’t that much more expensive, I dont mind switching after this exam. My only issues is that if I have to start learning all over again (or must clock minimum 20 lessons or some shit like that) then it’s not worth it.

Haiz… dilemma…

Food for Thought. Wednesday, Apr 11 2007 

I think those who do online shopping would have heard of Google checkout, an online payment service provided by Google itself, launched last year June.  Just realised that the working name wasn’t Google checkout.. it was G-buy.

Free Hugz Sunday, Apr 8 2007 

It’s been a rather busy week. With 3 birthday celebrations and 2 driving lessons on top of the usual routine of tuition etc. Really didn’t have much time for anything else. Oh yea, got back more results, and as expected, scored below average again. Attended the Easter concert on Friday, brought Qingxiang and Yau hong with me. It was not bad as usual, and I’m rather ashamed to realise that people who are studying, like me, could commit so much time in rehearsing and preparing for the concert which lasted for two days some more, including a girl who is in the same Organic Chem module as me.

But with everything so-called settled by now, I guess it’s really time to hit the panic button again.

Here is a video to my favourite song…. It’s so nice and huggggggggy!!!!

http://video.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=d7331927b71bdd52124b1f92e3cf88fd.1290850

hmm in singapore also have?!?! wow… i really wouldn’t spend my whole day doing that although i think it’s quite sweet.

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