Examination Results Thursday, Dec 27 2007 

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2007/2008 Sem 1 Examination for CHEMICAL ENGINEERING 2

Module Code Module Title Grade
CN2121 Chemical Engineering Thermodynamics B
CN2122 Fluid Mechanics A
LSM1102 Molecular Genetics A-
LSM2101 Metabolism and Regulation B
LSM2201 Experimental Biochemistry B

CAP: 4.27
(CAP computed is accurate based on progress & declaration made as at time of printing.)

I knew I will get my first B, or worse, B- or C, in this semester. End up getting 3 Bs.

Ironically I got A for the hardest module ever. HAHA. And the B in experimental biochem is.. well.. i’m just so glad this module is over, man.

And, really THANK GOD that I can still scrape a 3.95 for this semester (Experimental Biochem is 6 MC), despite not deserving it at all.

And this results probably reaffirms my decision: I’m quitting “Chemical Science Programme”. As for whether I should still take a Life Science Minor, I’m still deciding, but highly unlikely. The life science modules are time-draining, unrewarding (in terms of grades), and involves a heck lot of memorizing which I realised I suck at.

And come to think of it, maybe I should just be a normal chemical engineer when I graduate. Specializing in pharmaceutical chemistry will probably mean that I will end up being a drug salesman, the last thing I will want to be.  The biggest thing that is regretful is that I cannot S/U my expt biochem, which is a 6 MC module. But never mind, 5 semesters is enough to catch up.

I can’t say I’m totally satisfied with my results, but at least I got the bare minimum grade, which, to quote from a friend, “will not make me cry”. haha.

First attempt in DAW Wednesday, Dec 19 2007 

After spending days experimenting with my PSR S500, I have only one word to sum it up: sigh.

Not that it is a bad “arranger workstation”, it has great and amazingly realistic sounds. But I have lots of gripes with it:

* 32-note polyphony > Already exceeded it several times.

* No looping function> Cannot loop self-created background drums. Thankfully FL Studio is sufficient to do the job

* Lousy as a midi controller> Stuck notes, malfunctioning sustain pedal, keys simply go haywire. One of the greatest headaches of all.

* No individual EQ> A warm grand piano sounds the same as a normal grand piano when it’s not supposed to be this way. ARGH.

* Some poor sound mapping> Encountered a case where one note sounded slightly softer than all the rest. Makes for less than ideal performance when that note is a first in the chord i’m playing.

*  Bass notes sound louder than the upper notes> Considering this is a keyboard without a hammer effect, things get worse since I guess I am more used to exerting more force when playing with my left hand. Now I have to do the opposite.

When I have enough money some day, I will get my hands on that Tyros 2 which costs $4000. Right now I have to be satisfied with an entry-level PSR S500 and FL Studio 7 demo version.  My terrible built-in Sigmatel sound card does not help also since many other more useful sequencing software like sonar cakewalk cannot work with built-in sound cards. zzzz…

Youth Conference (9 – 14 Dec) Saturday, Dec 15 2007 

1) God is with us.

2) Not just with us in a way, like we say the air is with us, but God will help us. “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you” Isaiah 43:2

3) “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you.” does not mean that we are free from trouble. In fact, it is the opposite. God will chasten us when we sin. He will intentionally make us pass through the waters. But, such is the process of refining us, and to make us a better person. And the most comforting promise of God being with us applies.

4) God will do a new thing for us. He will give us a makeover, i.e. help us overcome our sin problems, give us the zeal to serve, give us strength to study God’s word (and schoolwork).

5) God’s promise is sealed in a New Covenant, an assurance that He will indeed do all the wonderful things that He had said.

The third message is supposed to be the message that we find it difficult to accept. What? God says He will help us but He does that by chastening us? But after listening to it I really don’t mind God chastening me, if that is His gesture of tough love. The problem is I’m not sure if I have truly accepted Him yet.

The fourth message is really the most wonderful message of all. Imagine being able to break free from sin and being able to find joy in the midst of difficult times. This is not just lip service. So many people can testify to that. Everyone whom I spoke to, the moment they accepted Christ as their saviour, the moment the Holy Spirit entered their body, they felt that huge sense of joy and gratitute that others could not have. And everyone I spoke to, also was a joyless person before.

However, during consecration night, I finally, unexpectedly stood up. Pastor asked those who do not think they are in God’s new covenant, that if they desire to enter this covenant, please stand up. Those who are already in God’s new covenant, if they desire to grow in faith, please stand up too. The first applied to me, so I gladly stood. I guess I did make some progress from last year then, lol.

In all, this conference did make an impact on me. Firstly every message is surprisingly relevant, despite not really applicable to me at this point in time.

* This message is for those struggling with sin problems that are difficult to overcome.

* Promise of God’s presence and help.

* If we ask, God will change us for the better. He will help us overcome our sins.

* Promise of God sealed in new covenant.

As I talked to Ping Khuan about my so-called “faith” or rather the lack of one, and why I was not making any progress, he asked me if sin haunts me. Immediately, and without thinking, I replied yes. He then told me the main issue that concerns, and leads us to salvation, is the issue of hating sin. We should be worried about being sinners, and feel grateful that our sins can be forgiven, by the blood of Christ. It was then I realised, I have not really been haunted by my sins at all. I have been having the wrong mindset that under pressing circumstances, should I fall, should I sin, that is understandable. Isn’t that bollocks or what? Really, I can’t blame anyone if I sin but myself. Even the most heinous crimes, such as murders, can occur under circumstances that forced the killer to “have no choice but to murder”, but we ourselves can feel disgust, and yet we still think that we are not like that! The truth is, even under the most difficult situations, all of us have a choice, to sin or not. And more often than not, we stumble and we sin. So in other words, we cannot lie to ourselves and say “Oh, we can’t help it. Situation made us this way.” The truth is, we choose to sin. And to have our sins forgiven there is only one way – to commit ourselves to Christ.

It’s time for me to truly humble myself and not waste anymore time.

Screw You, Bed, I Didn't Want to Take a 3 Hour Nap Today Monday, Dec 3 2007 

Name:

F*** You Bed, I Didn’t Want to Take a 3 Hour Nap Today

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Common Interest – Beliefs & Causes

Description:

This is for all you who have every been doing homework and feel a little bit tired, look longingly at your bed, and decide to lay down for a few minutes. The bed’s so comfy, and you’re so tired, but you’ve got tons of work to do an it’s already late in the afternoon. You close your eyes, fall into a soft slumber, and wake up… 3 hours later.

Bed, I know you’re really comfy but this can’t keep happening. I’ve got work to do! Seriously!

I’ve even had dreams about oversleeping and not being able to write a paper (the night that I was napping instead of writing my paper, due the next day). I woke up startled at the thought that this paper wouldn’t get written. So I rolled over to get out of bed… and fell back asleep.

F*** you bed. When I’m able to turn in for the night your comfiness is much appreciated, but seriously, these 3 hour naps have got to stop.

Haha…. facebook group descriptions just get funnier and funnier, simply because they are so true!! Indeed it’s comforting to know that I am not the only one who has this problem with my bed mistress – 5172 other people too.

Spot the Difference? Yes, yes, y'all!! Sunday, Dec 2 2007 

only today then i decided to grit my teeth, brace myself, turn on youtube and watch the infamous mda rap video. if you havent already, you can watch it over here.

Now, watch the following, likely to be the source of their ‘inspiration’:

Hmmm… whatever happened to MDA’s “get creative, can do, rock on?!

That said, I have to give them credit for trying hard. Haha.