So far I’ve read this 5 times and I can’t help but laugh everytime. Haha they are so damn cute LOL!!!!
Half a Sem Gone Monday, Mar 2 2009
Uncategorized 11:33 pm
And I think I’ve learnt next to nothing haha. Human capital in organizations, no offense to business students but it’s like one of the most smoking modules I’ve ever taken! Science of music is really fun and I do learn some interesting things, but mostly it’s slack also. Petrochem – tons of things to learn but I haven’t learnt any. Chem Eng Lab – Revised process control and still screwed up in the viva. And finally, Financial Accounting. Ok I’ve learnt some stuff, but I mean, all in all, it’s a far cry from all the past few sems, where you feel brainfreeze from all your lecture notes and textbooks.
So what have I been doing? Slacking mostly. I recently (about a month ago actually) bought an audio cable, so now I can connect my music keyboard to my computer and record high quality mp3s. Somehow I’m truly fascinated by this and the novelty still hasn’t worn off.
The past few days, though, is a *little* trying for me. The study stuff and the sense of inferiority complex keeps coming back to haunt me. Firstly, I seem to have minor sense of anxiety whenever someone mentions him doing a lot of stuff during the weekends. Secondly, I think I am slightly dumber than all the rest. Now don’t kill me for saying that, I’m saying, amongst the people I hang out with I’m probably the stupidest. So yea, you feel like you’re really dumb after some time (after 3 years actually.) Well I kind of accepted the fact that I’m dumb but admittedly I feel a bit sore when people around me also realize that I’m dumber (and hence react to me accordingly) that at times I almost want to shout back in defence in a moment of frustration.
I’m learning, though, ONCE AGAIN, to trust in God. Nothing happens to a believer without a reason. It can jolly well be God humbling me and making me turn to Him even more often from now on. Heck I’m quite sure it really is. Coincidentally (or not? ), last Sunday, during cat class Pastor Charlie even pointed out that Bethany is really a scary place. Why? Everyone is like so successful. Rafflesians, first-class honourians, and if you are just slightly worse off you feel like you are really bad. But that should not be the case. Doesn’t matter if, instead of being a top surgeon, you open a char kuay teow stall. The whole church will support you and your food! Haha. Believers have the privilege to enjoy peace with God. We are to seek this peace, if we don’t have it already. Besides, everything is God-given. God wants us to develop what we have, and won’t fault us for what we don’t have. Speaking of which, I hope to improve on my playing so as to serve better in SSS1. And most importantly to serve as a servant should.
Finally, we sang a hymn yesterday, “The Lord’s My Shepherd, I’ll Not Want”. There was a phrase taken from Psalm 23:4 which is the mindset I hope to work towards. “Yea, though I walk through death’s dark vale, yet will I fear no ill.” What I experience is probably nothing compared to many others, yet I know there will still be trials to come, and minor trials that I am experiencing now. But I shouldn’t fear, because God is with me.
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